Thank you for the beginning

Dear Reader,

This letter is for you and dedicated to you. I want to say thank you to you and to God. I want to say thank you to you for reading the weird and often vulnerable anecdotes of #SociallySavant. Thank you for going through the labour pains with me. Some of the moments (contractions) were aggressive and most times very long. Some moments (contractions) were soft and delicate. You availed your time to read and try and understand what I was trying to say through my words. For that I will be eternally grateful.

To God, I was so mad when you rapidly moved me to this. Six years and counting, I was happy doing nothing about this. I was happy just telling my friends what I thought in the confounds of safe and warm spaces. So when you left me bare with nothing but time and a laptop I was mad and nervous. I was mad because you know I hate critics I sink and die in criticism. I suffer in silence as it replays in my head but I wrote. I was also nervous because you wanted to start at very hard trigger points but here I am. A baby at its infant stages, growing and everyone admiring it because it’s just so adorable. As we grow together God deliver me from a) my thoughts and insecurities b) from the near and dear critics c) the judgemental and mostly d) from those who think I don’t serve to make them feel great in my journey. For light to shine there has to be darkness. I thank you for entrusting this to me. I am grateful and fearful. May you always guide me.

With all the love and sincerity my heart contains, until we meet again in 2018.

Silindile Mbali Ndlovu.

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