Scared And Lonely

So many women and men are scared and lonely. We feel unseen. We feel unnoticed and we feel like something went wrong for us and we are now no longer connected to the thing we were meant to be connected to.

The connections we originally had have changed. Besides family that we are glued to until death does us wrong we have friendships or ‘soulties’ we really felt connected to that we lost along the way. People we thought we would have forever. Turns out they were around for just a season and for a reason.

Our hearts are crushed when we realise they have moved on without us. Nothing in their new life styles or settings reminds them to call us back or invite us back in. That severe cut reminds us that we can no longer get back into the circle. It’s at that moment when fear of things never moving and progressing for you. The fear that the worst is truly going to steal your joy and you might never move out of this anguish of being alone you become scared.

So long as Social Media has the long list of recommendations of how life should look like we will always be lonely. We will always be seeking validation and security through what we are doing from people and not what we are doing for ourselves to advance ourselves or to fill our lives up with what is good for us.

If we do not take a moment to ask ourselves what would we like out of our experiences? Or ask what would the universe want me to do here? Why am I here in this moment? If we do not settle down and find stillness we are going to be lost.

We need to start redefining what happiness means and not isolate the need to succeed as the need to be happy. We need to garnish our enthusiasm from the good and honest intentions with hope. Not from what we think will define us and validate us. This time in my life I am seeking for revelation and I am seeking for truth and I am seeking it for myself. The truth is that seeking is such a rollercoaster ride and how much of that ride is seriously touch and go. 1% of the time you will get it right. That feeling of being the top, that fleeting moment is exhilarating however the 99% of the time you are isolated and that can be very hard. I wonder sometimes that if I had known how much work it took for this introspection would I be here? Would I be writing this truth? Would I be seeking this out for myself? Would I be listing all the things I want to do for myself just so that I can say I did it. Without anyone cheering me on or applauding my efforts.

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